My how time flies!
Today, I got an email saying that I have had Tumblr for 2 years!
And in those two years, I have done so much personal growth.
When this all started, I had a best friend who I pretty much did everything with. But things were starting to get weird between us.
We’re no longer friends, and I think about that, and I am way okay with that. I feel like she was holding me back a lot. I didn’t do any sort of volunteer work, because that just wasn’t cool. She formally worked at the place I work, and she was always putting it down. It was hard for me, because I am super good at my job and a very hard worker, and to hear someone tell me how stupid it was, was frankly hard to hear. Since then I have gone on to be employee of the month twice, and I have been recognized by the general manager as an up and coming leader, and invited to many corporate outings.
I have realized, how good it is to have standards! I used to hook up with a dudes after hardly knowing them. To me, they were just something to have fun with. But guess what? It got to not be fun. And then when I did really meet someone, I REALLY liked, he had a real girlfriend. And some other stuff happened, and I have just found it hard to trust men. I wish I could go back to being that girl who trusted everyone. I wish I could just give it all back. But I can’t. What I can do, is learn to actually develop trust. In those two years, I have decided, I don’t really want to waste my time with men who do not want the same things in life that I do. I can not stand when someone tells me that I work too much. I do not want to be with someone who doesn’t want to eventually get married. I don’t even care if it’s not to me, I want to get married someday, and hearing that you never ever ever ever want to, is kind of a deal breaker. I don’t want to be with someone with out ambition. I don’t want to be with someone who sits in front of a video game.
Most of all Tumblr has made me realize, that if other women can believe they are beautiful, I can too. I have always been confident, I have always thought I had a pretty face. But I have never gone out on a limb. But ya know what? What’s wrong with doing that?!
I’m smart, I’m beautiful, I’m strong!
I’ve got it all!
Sometimes I go on random dates to remind myself that it is better to be single.